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DISCIPLINE
Every man addicted to something
Some smoke, some drink, some chase girls, some waste time
But real man, he addicted to discipline
To early wakes, to pray, to training, silence
Discipline does not need motivation
Discipline move without feeling
Discipline say I go anyway
Even when tired, even when lonely
Discipline is best addiction
You want strong life, discipline builds
You want peace, discipline protects
You want respect, discipline earns
No shortcut, only work
Be men with control
Not men with excuse, no cry, no blame
You want better life, start with better habits
Discipline everyday until discipline becomes you
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In The Myth of Freedom and the Way of Meditation, Chögyam Trungpa Rinpoche explores the paradox that our conventional pursuit of “freedom” is actually what keeps us imprisoned. He argues that what we usually call freedom is just the ego’s attempt to manipulate the world to get what it wants.
Here is a summary of the core themes:
1. The Trap of “Freedom”
Trungpa asserts that most people live in a state of psychological imprisonment created by the ego.
- The Illusion: We think freedom means the ability to satisfy our desires and escape discomfort.
- The Reality: This “freedom” is actually a cycle of reaction. We are slaves to our attractions and aversions, constantly running toward pleasure and away from pain.
2. The Mechanics of Ego
The book breaks down how the ego maintains its territory through “The Six Realms” of existence (states of mind like pride, jealousy, and anger).
- Defense Mechanisms: The ego uses emotions as “security guards” to protect its perceived boundaries.
- Neurosis: Trungpa views our daily anxieties and neuroses not as bugs in the system, but as the very walls of our self-built prison.
* Example of a Realm – The Second One:
The Hungry Ghost Realm (Preoccupation)
In the Preta realm, you are possessed by unquenchable thirst. It is the realm of addiction and “not enough-ness.”
- The Obsession: The feeling of a “huge stomach and a tiny throat.” You see something you want, you get it, but it provides no nourishment, so you immediately look for the next thing.
- The Experience: A perpetual sense of poverty, regardless of how much wealth or affection you actually possess.
3. Meditation as the “Way”
Meditation is presented not as a relaxation technique or a way to get “high,” but as a ruthless tool for honesty.
- Objectivity: It allows us to see our thoughts and emotions without trying to fix or change them.
- Boredom: Trungpa famously highlights the value of boredom in meditation. When we stop trying to entertain ourselves, we begin to see the “cool” and spacious quality of reality.
4. True Freedom (Fearlessness)
True freedom isn’t the absence of constraints; it is the freedom from the hope of something better and the fear of something worse.
- Surrender: It involves giving up the struggle to be “perfect” or “enlightened.”
- The Present: By fully experiencing the “hotness of the fire and the coldness of the ice” in the present moment, we step out of the ego’s narrative and into a state of basic sanity.
Summary Table
| Concept | The Mythical View | The Buddhist View |
| Freedom | Doing whatever I want. | Freedom from the wanting itself. |
| Meditation | Escaping to a peaceful place. | Facing the chaos of the mind directly. |
| Ego | A solid “self” to be protected. | A collection of habits and defenses. |
| Happiness | Accumulating positive experiences. | Relaxing into things as they are. |
“The path is the goal. There is no point in waiting for a future realization.” — Chögyam Trungpa
DISCERNMENT
Another spiritual paradox that is adjacent to victory through surrender is the myth of freedom. What is not free once one is able to grasp that we are all the river, the creator and the creation? Once we grasp more than intellectually the transitory nature, illusion, of self; just a water molecule caught in the flux, the very definition of freedom collapses – free from what? ourselves?
As children, some of us wanted to break ALL of the chains. Railing against the universe for having to abide by its constraints. Rebuking how we evolved, who we were born as, the very gender and other roles we inherited.
It’s like getting angry for the labor of breathing, instead of accepting it for what is, and even finding beauty in it. It’s link to our autonomous natures, having the choice of it being voluntary or automatic. A body function we can consciously override, teaching us that we can access and resist other compulsory behavior – is a gift. Yet it is still a required chore – it is all about the perception.
There are many social, culturally acceptable, behaviors I do not accept. Maybe this is an indication that I have room to expand in my spiritual practice. If enlightenment means accepting all, I certainly am not ready for it.
Sitting in the gym locker room, hearing a celebrated musician bragging about having, through their fame and money, acquired a hundred money grubbing whores and how this gets him blowjobs on private planes repulses me. *Reference: Bad Bunny’s song “Monaco”
How others, that claim to advocate for women, promote and share this ‘rot’ bewilders me. Would anyone want their child to be one of those whores? If not, why propagate it onto the ears of the children of others, teaching them it is socially acceptable?
It puzzles me that the masses will accept this, but rebel against real wisdom. It seems they are more concerned with the source than the content. As a society we are slow to update our scripts, not seeing that often what we think is the rebellious stance has already been mainstream for a time and the real rebellion would be being in defiance to that.
This discernment of what to rebel against, rather than blindly countering everything, is where I choose to be. I listen to my inner voice and try not to get holier-than-thou, but still resist what I see as degrading to society. Maybe my next lifetime I will learn to accept it all, beyond being in deep altered states or contemplative abstraction, but as the everyday ‘living molecule’ – ego.
It’s a mad world.
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CONFORMISTS
A man is looking for a woman that aligns with him
and rebels against the madness of the world.
Not a woman that aligns with the madness of the world
and rebels against him.
Unfortunately, the later is easier to find.
So much so that many weak men have surrendered their inner voice, conscience, in favor of fitting in with them.
When enough of them succumb is usually when civilizations start to collapse. The collective rot from the inside invites bands of stronger men from the outside to overrun what the civilization once had built.
Nothing new. The wheel keeps turning.
As Above So Below
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Women will consciously and subconsciously sabotage each others relationships. Even best friends, that in all other respects are out for each other’s best interests. It is some deep primal instinct. That, and ignorance of men, is why they give each other such awful relationship advice. I’ve seen it too many times to consider it a bug and not a feature.
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I am fortunate to have learned these lessons young. Although not globally famous, within the military and my communication systems career I was well known, had a reputation, received consistent accolades and financial rewards.
I was smart enough not to outwardly act too arrogant. I used the power I had gained to get away with subtle egoic behaviors that hurt myself and others, but at the time felt like I deserved, had earned. Forget it when I was drinking, with no brakes, my demons often revealed themselves.
Looking back, giving it all up in my younger thirties, quitting partying, quitting using woman in relationships to fill what I was lacking, getting honest with myself, and working on myself was a blessing and saved me years of living more blindly.
I had to learn to listen and acknowledge, despite being well read and having lived by thirty more than a lot of people do their entire lives, I didn’t always have the answers. There was room to grow. Having kids helped me see what was real, what wasn’t that stole energy and what kind of example I wanted to be. I grew up, a second, third… time – and still am growing. I try to maintain a zen mind, beginner’s mind about it all.
But for the grace of God go I
Actors I admire because they seem to have avoided these traps themselves, with much more fame and money than I had to contend with.
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Duncan Fleming
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Beauty Lost
Beauty never dies
…but the individual can lose it
Look at Madonna
Claiming self actualization
Without attainment
…the oldest diversion in the book
Able to talk the spiritual talk
Hire teachers from my own tradition
That she could be a guide to anyone
Delusion
…blinded by her arrogance and fame
Years of promoting promiscuity to the youth
Sold to women as freedom and liberation
Entangled her soul
Fed the demons pulling her strings well
Evidenced in her own self mutilation
We cannot hide our behaviors
Defiance to men, Saturn and the Sun
…as if men do not also carry the moon and understand the dark
…as if the Sun is not the source of its illumination
…as if their wisdom denied – yields any virtue
It only leaves calamity for the rebellious
For the spoiled child
The tragic irony
The beauty she clutched has slipped away
Painted on her contorted, defiled face for all to witness
Redemption?
I am not the final judge
My earnest sacrifices gaining a view
From my lowly accent and perch
Clearly looking down at her poor choices
It seems unlikely while she is in this form
Beauty Lost
The life well lived is plain for all to see
The natural beauty radiates eternal
And no amount of wear and tear
No amount of years and weather
Can hide what is REAL
He loves you
Again, who am I to judge
So I will not say but ask:
You, clearly have work on yourself to do
Are you using him as a placeholder?
Are you just infatuated with his infatuation for you?
Are you using him, knowing his heart is on the line, as a safe shelter from facing yourself?
Just another human, drug, behavior to fill the hole?
If my questions are off – my apologies
If your intentions are true friendship, I wish nothing but blessings for you and him
He is a good man
It is clear for all to see, he wants more
If he accepts and is aware of the situation, it is his choice to hang on
Forgive my trespasse for thinking both of you are fooling yourselves
I truly am not privy to direct communication on the matter
My intuition and assumptions are all I have to go by
Choices and taking the easy route have consequences
Playing with another’s soul to satiate one’s own is evidence of a child that has not attained much at all
That is still ruled by demons and addictions
With all love and compassion
Stop trying to prematurely inspire others
When you do not possess the next level of a gift to give
You have had lessons of the past
Attainments of youth
Your charity and journey are not in vain
Coming on 34, you can and should aspire for a higher foothold
To progress you have to, in your heart, let past accomplishments go
Face character defects and past trauma you have not yet undone
Gain the humility to understand your ego cannot get you to the next level
…and accept and adopt a posture that
You know nothing
Surrender
Every gift you were given, your beauty
Is on the line
Stop feeding off of premature accolades
Stop absorbing media that is base and corrosive
That props up and feeds your ego and subconscious desires
…be willing to suffer and do the work
Take these words seriously
I’ve had visions of the older wiser you
…living in grace and propagating inner beauty
Do not throw it away like Madonna
It matters
…and I care
REAL beauty is eternal and can be held on to
As long as you are willing to sacrifice and grow
Let go of yesterday’s wisdom
…and guard and protect your inner light
From your own demons
I do not possess your answers
Earnestly ask your higher self and God
…and the path will be revealed
I have faith and belief you will be victorious
That you will pass on your gift, once cultivated, to many others
You will inspire and light the way for those that need it
I look forward to witnessing that and it would bring me immense joy
Patience and determination will be your strength and chariot
You are loved ❤️
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The Mockery of True Beauty
Want to break real boundaries, limits? Blow past real barriers? Show real courage?
Stop selling and perpetuating the conditioning and conformity to other women (and some men) that they have to buy products to smear on their faces to look good and that REAL beauty comes from inside. That they don’ t have to be another court jester following the herd.
Definitely stop teaching them and normalizing injecting nasty foreign substances into their faces and cutting themselves up with procedures in order to be of value. A healthy person would go crazy walking around with crap stuffed under their skin. Like puss from a pimple they would want to get it out! It seems a sign of mental illness. So unnatural. So obvious. So disgusting. Max Vanity!
It’s always these people with such low self worth projecting to others about confidence. Over preaching about how much they are winners, trend setters, and framing others as in their shadow wanting to be like them. The aware can easily see the mockery. REAL lions do not need to roar. I truly do have compassion and feel sorry for such lost souls. They have been sold a bag of lies.
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WHO CARES?
I wouldn’t wish fame on anyone. The inflated ego seems to be part of the territory. No gratitude, no humility; just “look what I ‘manifested’ all by myself”. Then the virtue signaling as if everyone else would want the same, but just don’t believe in themselves enough and need their guidance!
Using the fruits of this country while shitting on brave heroes, doing real work, that are risking their lives to remove dangerous criminals that disrespected our laws and came in illegally!
Sucking energy from countless automatons spell bound from illusions. Drunk on themselves and their mindless followers. The ego cannot manifest anything, but sure likes to take the credit. Just like low IQ people parrot what you teach them as their own.
You would think they built something, invented something, or cured cancer. Not that I would worship someone who did, but at least it would be more than mere entertainment. Limits? what limits? It’s a well beaten path. Selling what’s ‘in style’. Insufferable.
Just another rich pawn. A ‘shiny’ to sell sell sell.
“Dare to love” says the coward that couldn’t even reply to a single message, much less match the amount of direct love and gestures given to her for a year and a half! None of that was needed or required, just the respect of a reciprocated ‘hello’ and I would of taken it from there. It would be comical if it wasn’t so sad.
…there was real magic, a divine gift.
If it is hard for a rich person to get to heaven, fame must make it doubly so.
There is no envy here, only compassion. Maybe a little grudge. For I see it for what it is. I see it for what it could of been.
…and it is sad.
The only option is to Let it Go!
…feel blessed ‘Carrying her essence in my heart 𓇼’
…the REAL that I also see in her
…and trust everything has its rhyme and reason.
I have plenty of unopened messages. The difference is I don’t tease them and keep them on the hook like a flake. This was real. Why I hung on waiting. Still, I own that, but carry a grudge for her cowardice and hypocrisy – because I am human, not even a saint.
- signed – my ego that fell in love with her
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What if heaven is a small garden that one could tend to with their own hands. Instead of chasing the stars one would only have to look within their own backyard. The path less travelled for sure.
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The planner, The schemer, The manipulator, The presenter, The image crafter, The discontent, The controller, The satisfied, The achiever, The director
The actor
Sometimes I am engrossed in the scenes
Other times detached, observing, aware of the dynamic nature of the show
Never in my meditation has ‘The Play’ ceased
No spiritual teacher I respect ever promised it would, could, or should while in this living body
Therefore my practice is not to escape living, but to accept it
To witness the transitory nature of the ego
Understand why it does what it does
…and not be ruled by it
Through that there is mastery in surrender
…and I learn to Let Go
…and serve that which is higher than my animal desires
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“Fiction is the nature of reality” Lyam Thomas Christopher
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When I critique her, my feelings and intentions are of love
…as flawed as they can be
For her ego is my ego, her pride is my pride 🪞
When others’ do so, I want to stab them in the throat 🔪 🩸
Her crumbs are more filling
…than the best baked breads from the finest bakeries
Willingly stepping into Heaven’s oven
– again and again
The fire purifies the soul 🔥
Leaving only what is REAL
I am more content alone
Working on myself, walking this world
Serving that which is higher than my animal desires
Carrying her essence in my heart 𓇼
Than dining on another’s platter
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If a woman truly desires a man, she will directly reciprocate from the start, follow his lead on how to initiate the relationship, and not risk turning him away by her behaviors.
It is men that she feels she is settling for and are beneath her that she will play games with. Some women will seek out such a dynamic when they are ready to settle down, start a family, out of a desire to be in control. When a man rejects being treated as such, it has nothing to do with fear or him not being able to handle her, and everything to do with self respect.
I’ve been in this game a long time and I have seen the same patterns play out again and again. Requiring a woman respect herself and you in a relationship is not insecurity, it is leadership.
Never settle for a woman that thinks she is settling for you.
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